I have not often marked the gregorian New Year to be of much importance to my life. Solstice feels special. Dark. Deep. But so reflective that the process of understanding the year continues far past the turn of the date. The new year always felt like it happened in early Spring, for me. But there is something quite real about writing the new number in my journal. If 1/1/2015 is any indication of the kind of year 2015 is due to be, I am likely to be sweetly surprised and embraced by mythical rapture in ways that will completely stretch my concept of Love. (2014 definitely stretched it already!)
My friend Shay Hohmann remarked, "We've been going through this dark time, from the 21-31 feels like the peak of darkness, and January is like dawn. If the New Year is a day, January is the Dawn."
His comment went straight to my heart because the current poem I have been memorizing to perform tonight begins in this way,
"My only faith in technologies are in that which are old.
I trust in the "breakthroughs" of a seed through soil.
This is a Revolution readying the heart
to rest under the morning blankets of frost
under the thinnest layers of snow
just as the sky turns blue before dawn
and the landscape begins to refresh its colour..."
The poem continues, exploring concepts of darkness, before we break out of the soil in the end. This week, the poem has put me through several haunting initiations. I had no idea when I wrote it that it would effect me so deeply, but as I've been memorizing it, it has revealed many secrets, and brought up a lot of emotions. Synching up its story with events in my life in un-planable ways. Just once, yesterday, I was speaking the words of the poem in my mind - not aloud - completely through concentration, my body not able to be on autopilot because I wasn't using my mouth or voice. It's a nine-minute poem, and I felt, even through the concentration, my awareness of the three other human souls with me, the forest spirits, the cathedral frost, epic cliffs and icicles, and the music of the Little River. The pulsing Life from the huge trees around us. It felt like channeling. Like shamanic journey work. The same level of attentive concentration and openness to cosmic whispering.
And if January is the dawn of the day that is the New Year, then this truly is the Revolution melting. It is ready, and it has made each and every one of us ready by putting us up to some really intense challenges. No way around it, 2014 was a year of extremes.
Astrologically, the Pluto-Uranus dance that has been happening since late 2012 will have its final exact square in March. Until then, we'll remain within 1 degree of the two being in this intense aspect with each other. A Square in an aspect of tension... the tension being:
Pluto - Death and Rebirth. In Capricorn - Earth. Social structures and governances.
Uranus - Revolution, sudden changes in consciousness. In Aries - Fire. Initiation.
This is the global revolution.
The darkest part of the year just passed. "Solstice" means to Stand Still, so we can bring together and focus our inward attention. We gather, reflect, tap into, and contribute to global healing energy potential. Intentions for focusing our collective structure on building a foundation from Love (rather than corruption) of designing social systems from a directive of collaboration and listening (rather than control).
Saturn moved into Sagittarius two days later, relieving the intensity of the last two years as Saturn plowed through Scorpio. We're beginning to understand where each person's heart is within the greater context of healing the plant, healing society, healing ourselves, by bringing our awareness into loving, caring interactions with every person we meet, inclusive of our interactions with our environment to create a new system of interaction altogether. Sagittarius is the fire and passion of society, and now this is the arena of our lessons. (More on Saturn in Sag. from Michael Schultz.)
This means we are - we have the capacity to - dream in a new world. Traditional astrologers see "squares" - such as the square between Uranus and Pluto currently - as bad luck. Evolutionary astrologers consider "squares" to be the greatest gift for action and growth. It is not easy. Especially with Pluto involved. I have heard others describe Pluto as the "astrological blowtorch" and they're not far afield. Pluto is digging out the deepest level of corruption in our social system and bringing them to the surface -- from governments to families to our own personal value structures, fracturing through all levels, together, we are revealing what needs to change. And yet the trick is not to focus on the problem.
If we refrain from focus on governmental and political problems in our social interactions, we have the greatest potential for healing at this time. What is "amiss" that needs attention is something we can apply to the structure, process, or ways of being through our Love. What kind of world will we create? Depends on how deeply attentive we can get. And it requires quite a lot of stillness among a busy "holiday" world in order to know what is right for us. Winter is a naturally slower time in nature, not a time of "doing", but a time of Listening.
The reason to refrain from focus on the horror of all that in wrong, while it is important to be aware of it, to be angry at it, to feel the truth and frustration of injustice -- it is more powerful to realize these systems came from somewhere, rather than to stop your discovery at Anger and stay there. The next question, after the "what" is revealed, is "why". Why? It is not due to erroneous fault in individuals alone. It is not solely because of "greedy" rich people, "violent" police, "lazy" houseless folks, or the "silent" middle class. Human beings created large systems (Capricorn). And those Systems are being turned upside down and need to be transformed (Pluto). If we want another wold built upon Anger, then stay in your Anger. If we want to grow into a culture of equality, justice, freedom, health, and Love, we must choose to act out these qualities in our personal life. I find it is MUCH more interesting - and requires much more focus attention - to be perfectly honest with myself and seek Love and understanding for every person I interact with than it is to be blatantly Angry at the World.
And because of the work in finding that honesty everywhere, I will say I notice Life takes on a nature of radical beauty, as well as haunting neutrality.
It is wonderful to realize that some of the best days of our lives are yet to occur. Perhaps some of the worst too. Yet, equipped with only the wisdom we have gathered from our own experience, we know that Life goes on. And Love -- however we want to describe it or feel it -- will forever be the foundation by which we can let Life construct magic from the unknown.